I wanted to be a developer, and create the kind of games that I wanted to play. Now, I just want to survive.
I feel that there is some world that others were brought into, that I was left too long to believe that I am a part of it, and I suffered a lot, trying to have the normalcy that others take for granted.
This is not my world, I don't belong in it.
My goal is to become independent enough to not have to worry about other humans exploiting me at all, or die trying.
That is very interesting, at 29? I'm about to get diagnosed for ADHD a month from now.
I attribute this to gaining to ability to stand up for yourself near the end of your twenties, whilst before, they just pacify you and keep you unaware, unt you suffer enough.
The plan is to knock the population down to the point where A: making money for tycoons is hard and B: the value of everyone remaining, goes up.
Not create human slop to slave away in an ever-rightless world.
There's few conditions where more children are a good idea, very few.
Why in the fuck would I slave away, in order to push another person into the same situation? Why am I obligated to breed? Maybe I can adopt instead if I feel like it, no reason to add more people to this helhole.
It's justified. You are not thinking straight, and are shoving non-consenting people into a world that is overburdened, and explicitly does not want them.
We need to fix this place, before forcing anyone to live in it.
AI is like that unwanted child, trying to belong.