I wanted to be a developer, and create the kind of games that I wanted to play. Now, I just want to survive.
I feel that there is some world that others were brought into, that I was left too long to believe that I am a part of it, and I suffered a lot, trying to have the normalcy that others take for granted.
This is not my world, I don't belong in it.
My goal is to become independent enough to not have to worry about other humans exploiting me at all, or die trying.
Let's be honest: this does not end with a cultural change or miracle: this ends when so many of us start dying, that civilization collapses, and people have to start over
My verbal IQ is carrying me. There's very real consequences where not picking up on a que and understanding a task instantly, results in people remembering me as the guy who "doesn't know shit".
So they skip over me, and don't even bother training me.
Which resulted on days where there's "no work", and so less pay.
Buying the best bed possible, paying off my whole debt, and going to sleep for a long time.