I wanted to be a developer, and create the kind of games that I wanted to play. Now, I just want to survive.
I feel that there is some world that others were brought into, that I was left too long to believe that I am a part of it, and I suffered a lot, trying to have the normalcy that others take for granted.
This is not my world, I don't belong in it.
My goal is to become independent enough to not have to worry about other humans exploiting me at all, or die trying.
Fairly sure it's moral context, and to society in general. Like, you know, between one or another average person (not serious offenses or feats). Like is the guy who was a drunkard lesser? Like a stain on their soul.
Like, I think at least...at the time it was about moral value. Like, the permanent kind. I specifically am thinking about more subtle stuff. Like for example: my co-workers sound almost outraged when I say I want to continue education, because I should have studied earlier, and so they think I deserve to spend my life sweating and bleeding.
There's no "redemption" here, no meritocracy, no ladder.
So I noticed that there seems to be these unwritten rules between people that go against the official rules of society. Like if they believe someone was hard working early in life, they outright treat them better and let them get away with more shit. Others effort and suffering is put down, as if it matters less.
See what I mean?
So how common do you think this is? And what is your personal opinion if who, if anyone, should be worth less? (I am more inclined towards seeing people as worth more, not less. With the exception of extremely bad people).
In general, people think one person deserves less than another. Like, you don't belong in this high place, you belong in the slums type of thing. Or one person being a priority in medicine over another.
I feel that a lot of people think this way, even if I generaly don't. I like, have special respect for teachers, Doctors, people who save lives, but I really actually love being around (trustworthy) people who believe themselves "losers". I love raising their egos.
I have a friend that is just threated like shit by her siblings and parents, who starved her, even though she graduated as an engineer, and was close to getting a job. She keept fainting at work, at least that's the story.
They still treat her awful, and sabotage her every chance they can. She is temporary disabled due to malnutrition, and would easily be able to provide for herself if not for that.
I myself I guess, my opinion is automaticaly treated as invalid, just because it's me saying it. Just because I had some very...weird logic, people automatically dismiss my opinions, tell me it's all in my head when I'm sick.
I was practicaly run out on a rail in several places. I feel that I'm missing some ability that I should have, and also that I have a few moral stains, and that people treat others around me better for that.
I have seen someone on Lemmy comment about getting rid of people who make short comments/don't add much to the conversation on Lemmy. That was...interesting to see.
Interesting answer. I feel that even if we don't assign values, society has inherent values on people (Poor people get less healthcare, higher tax rates, bills, go in ripped clothes to a restoraunt, and see what happens).
I personaly try to talk to friends equaly if possible, but I would move out of the way for a veteran right away, and tend to treat other people as being more worth than me.
I feel that they have a "something" that makes them more of a person.
I also have a higher respect for Doctors/Engineers/scientists and really like those (but not sure that counts as seeing them as "worth" more per-se).
There's also the moral dimension. See what happens to cheaters for example. Not that I condone that, I just think people should avoid them for closed relationships.
Anywhere she lives, I'm keeping a mental note to stay 100 meters away from.