Like the word emotional gratification? Or are you referring to be a narcissist and that I trying to control people to meet my ends.
I'll share this with you. People will still treat you like a shitty person even as you start out working on yourself, you're gonna have to really fucking suffer, then on top of that put even more work on top of that. It's not gonna be easy or even gratifying for a while, if you put in the work, you'll make connections with people.
When your suffering starts to drop then you'll know your on the right track
I feel like you're the first to sincerely ask that. I can answer that I just have a trigger warning about it. Even though the other threads hint to how I know outside of a professional diagnosis
You're a little narcissist. You're relentlessly gas lighting. Trying to convince me I'm wrong.
I enjoy hostility from others because I can undermine the hostile people, make them crash out, and they can't do shit other than get called out for playing the victim.
If someone is nice or neutral to me then I have to deal with the guilt that I'm manipulated and attacking their ego
Man reading your evaluation of me is interesting. Mostly just a shot in the dark damn they really wanted to practice psychology, do see other narcissist have a hard time hiding their narcissism from other people, I probably have a subtle aura around me
Me when I'm about to do a crime: "no one cared who I was before I put on the mask"
Don't worry I'm referring to the time I witnessed someone destroyed an inflatable trump statue