Oh man I've kept my 2015 Macbook Air around purely because it handles light Ableton sessions better than my old Windows desktop did, and more reliably than Ableton under WINE. Ableton is a dream on Macs, I'd love to switch to Reaper though; would you say it's worth switching?
There's some good advice from other people, especially about continuing to pursue medication and/or therapy when possible, but in terms of putting distance between you and your parents so you can feel safe, there's a couple things I think might help.
First off is something other people have mentioned: going on a jog/walk regularly, preferably daily, to give yourself the physical distance from your parents. Making sure you regularly have 15-45mins to yourself every day will help a lot with giving yourself room to mentally and physically be away from them.
Second, finding places other than your room for spending time and relaxing will help a lot too. If you have a local library, a park, a café, anywhere that you can spend a few hours hanging out at, that will help a lot too. I mention cafés and libraries because they usually offer free internet and a calm environment, so you can hang out in a corner and do whatever personal work/fun stuff without being at home. For example, I used to stay at our library after school and do homework, talk with friends, and pass time on the internet. The other upside to these places is seeing new faces more often, plus it can be a chance to meet with friends, or find new friends if you'd like.
I'm not sure what your financial situation is like, but in any case these should be cheap, low-barrier-to-entry options for getting away regularly. I'm also in my 20s and have pretty intense anxiety, so I know first-hand that there's a way for us, it's just not as easy as it should be. You're already doing better than I was: you're asking questions and seeking help. As long as you keep searching for help and regularly giving yourself the mental/physical space to have some peace, you'll be alright.
I hope some of this was helpful for you, I hope you're able to find what you need to get the peace you deserve.
Sure it's the same as it ever was, but the Christian nationalist perspective can only be excised in favor of this more reasonable, accurate interpretation of religious material by overpowering it. Christianity (or any religion) isn't going anywhere, so in my mind it's easier to push for positive change in a religion's prevailing interpretation, instead of hoping people lose their religion and maybe learn the right lessons in the aftermath.
I guess my point is I'm less concerned with whether any religion is true (simply unverifiable) and more with socializing people to interpret their beliefs in the best way possible. That's doable: far right conservatives did the reverse to American Christianity, so it must be possible to repair.
That's a fair point, I guess I think of digital goods in a different context.
They definitely deserve compensation for their work, and how they chose to do it is absolutely valid. I think I'm biased toward open source hardware where the labor of creating their digital files is subsidized by selling the physical product instead. I realize that's a risk and takes more effort though, so I totally understand why they didn't do that.
I replied to another response similar to yours so I won't bore you unless you want to read more, but I mostly agree with what you said and I totally agree that the work itself to create the file is worth compensation. I'm just a penny-pinching bastard who would rather find out if the print is actually good before paying lmao.
Pay-what-you-want, donations, and subsidizing with a higher price for the final product makes more sense to me in terms of these kinds of digital goods, but that's besides the point, and I'm no expert on this kind of thing.
Honestly I'd be willing to pay 5-8 bucks for the final product since it looks more polished than any of the free designs I've seen. But yes, fair points.
I don't disagree, never said people should work for free. I recognize there's a disjoint in believing good information should be free[ly accessible] and also that people deserve compensation for work, though. It's just one of those contradictions I haven't solved as far as my own beliefs.
More than anything I was complaining, like I said it's a totally valid business choice, I'm just a penny-pincher lol.
Oh definitely, I just think it's easier to justify paying for a physical product than it is paying for a single file if you still need to manufacture it yourself. Still a valid business practice, I'm just biased toward "information should be free" and all that.
Looks like the specific design in this video is being sold here, but if you'd prefer something that isn't behind a pay wall there's a few options (like this one).
Side rant: I'm all for people getting compensation for creative work but I feel like it's wrong to put the source file behind a waywall instead of simply selling the actual print directly to people that don't have access to a printer, that seems much more fair imo
I mean that's kinda the whole deal with 3d printing, it's useful for really niche applications where you can just add a small amount of convenience to your life.
Someone else commented about this being good for school kids so they can safely make cat scratchers to donate to animal shelters, and as a cat owner with a constant pile of recycling I can see this being actually useful if I wanna avoid spending $20-$40 on one of those fancier cardboard cat scratchers from Target or whatever.
Hell yeah, Keen is a classic, I gotta emulate it sometime to relive the memories