This is certainly how I've been feeling.
I'm not even in the US but I just can't look away from this train wreck.
It's like there's been this simmering undertone of shady conservative feelings in the US for the last decade, and this is where the public either validates it or takes a firm stance against it.
There's no coming back for Trump if he loses, but there's gonna be a global shitstorm if he wins. Autocrats getting their way in Russia and Israel, global tarrif war triggering a global depression, droughts fires and storms from climate change, all supporting a lurch to the right.
I think if he loses this election he will be dead before the next.
Imagine the stress of his various legal and financial problems, no longer with any backing from powerful people, then going to jail or under house arrest with no contact with his followers and just being completely irrelevant and forgotten, knowing that by the time you're released you'll just be an empty broken frail old nothing.
It would be Trumps worst nightmare. It would break his spirit.