I'm only alive because successfully killing myself is hard. Bernadette, she/her, smash bros addict, dog person, work addict, ruined beyond repair, stuck in the past. I will defend Amazon and Nintendo like they're the parents I never had. They did, and will do, nothing wrong, ever.
Honestly I eat restaurant food most of the time as I don't live alone and cooking while living with family is harder than fist fighting a polar bear while having no arms. It's either trash like taco bell (nothing else is open) or healthier locally owned things/"fancy" places.
When I live alone I'll use Amazon Fresh for fresh and frozen stuff or probably try a service like Factor.
No one does their laundry, or is awake, between 1 and 6 in the morning I realized. And if I miss that window there is another where no one is at home, but I prefer to be home when They are out. I could do fresh delivery at that time to avoid The Family's Wrath™ when I get groceries with 30 minutes of using my phone and unload them into my mini fridge in 5 minutes which is So Unfair!!! because they have to spend over 24 hours for the same result.
I'm living as much as I can with family. When I cut ties I'll live to the fullest. But now, aside from saving and overtime, my goals are launching some shopify side hustles, making some games, going to the gym on my off days, and climbing the amazon corporate ladder while also doing free college through their program. Then I'll do a lot more hobbies, more than making and playing games lol. I want to get into streaming... games. And more.
Imagine just not having a vehicle lol imagine spending less than $1000 once and being able to get around oh right that's horrible we should buy huge metal boxes that require government licenses that cost so much, and fuel that costs oh so much, and complain about not having money. Right, that bitch on a bike is the reason why you have no money, not the fact you spend ten times the amount you accuse young people of spending on Starbucks on an inferior travel method. A developed country is not where the poor have cars, it's where the rich use public transit.
Yeah because you move your body sooooo much sitting in a car and walking slower than a newborn snail in Costco, instead of working out at a gym, walking at a park, playing Just Dance, walking your dog, etc.
I buy all my groceries with Amazon Subscribe and Save. I don't get a lot of fresh/frozen stuff, and when I do, it's usually unnecessary things I wanted like ice cream. I'll gladly ride a scooter to a supermarket for exactly one ice cream quart and nothing else, spending literally 6 minutes including standing on the self checkout line and purchasing.
My light turns off automatically 5 minutes after the time I depart for work, if it's on at that time.
My fan, heater, and wax warmer are connected to Alexa on my fire TV and phone. The wax warmer is on a smart plug and automatically turns off after 5 hours.
I take out MY trash when leaving for the gym. MY trash is already gathered in one bag, so taking it out and putting in a new bag is just an extra minute. I do this only when leaving for the gym and NOT work, so life is easier. Getting to the gym a minute late is not an issue, getting to the train station a minute late can mean I can't make it to work. Obviously I don't leave that late, BUT if I do, I still make it without forgetting to take out trash.
I put my clothes in the washer before getting in the shower, and put it in the dryer before departing for the gym. This way, when I come back from the gym, I can bring my laundry back into my bedroom and hang it up (the most effort). And now I have zero chores to do for the rest of the week, I can work in peace, come home and do nothing (after successfully escaping family who refuses to listen to me)
If you don't want to work until you die then don't. I've lived in a situation where the only way out is death, and I only got out because my horrible ass mother saw I had the potential to make her rich. Otherwise I'd be locked away in a group home for a disorder I never had until I killed myself.
Who's Who Ulterior Motives baby!
And this gave me perspective on...
Just now MUCH money that woman literally threw out!
And
That my neglect was much much worse than I thought. I lived like I was minutes away from being homeless, every day until I got my first job as a freelance dog sitter. Like stretching everything with water, having dirty clothes to stretch laundry detergent, using the shower like a bidet, sleeping when hungry instead of eating. When all of that was unnecessary as shit bro. I thought I hated that woman the most I possibly could but now I resent her more.
And how the rest of that family just TOLERATED that! The one relative originally doing the driving for the grocery excursions was a secondary breadwinner, and she died the other day. She paid half the bills, and that wasn't enough for that mother. That mother would scream and berate the relative for NOT driving and standing around for 15 hours in her days off. If that relative had more than two days off, then she'd be driving and standing around on all of them. Her WHOLE LIFE was just work, driving, and Candy Crush and now she's dead. Her daughter replaced her as the grocery excursion driver. And I AM THE FUCKING PROBLEM for suggesting ordering online!
Man. That woman should have never had kids. She married the stupidest men who probably settled for anyone who'd pay them attention, had all these kids she just used for money and neglected. Bloody hell when my online stores pop off I'm gonna donate to some charity to prevent this shit no fucking child deserves UNNECESSARY suffering. There's being born in an unfortunate situation (poor, homeless, etc, which shouldn't even be things but whatever) and having rich parents who deliberately withhold basic necessities. Suffering for NO FUCKING REASON bro.
Oh yeah and I was telling that woman she could buy less stuff for herself but she insists on trying to vacuum seal produce that rots anyway bro. If I had that money you bet half of that would go to like Saint Jude or something and I could sustain a whole family on it while giving everyone comfortable lives where they don't need to smell bad because mommy needs to eat what kim kardashian eats.
It IS a waste of time so I do it while getting dressed, just cursing out religious leaders as I throw on sweatpants and an Amazon branded hoodie to head out for work. This way no time is wasted. I find it funny and it boosts my mood for the day.
Or you can have fun now and have no consequences.
So yeah, all that stuff belonged to that family's mother. Everyone lived on cup noodles despite a thousand (or MORE ffs) dollars being spent and wasted every week. I was skimped out on the most. That woman could buy whatever some Celebrity Doctor said to buy for $100 but wouldn't buy me body wash for months, and blamed my poor hygiene on a disorder I didn't have. Being neglected by a rich parent is horrible because you're not allowed to call them out without looking ungrateful or spoiled. You become "entitled" when you complain that you couldn't shower, have school supplies, or brush your teeth with toothpaste because your rich mother who just bought you a laptop didn't buy them.
Adulthood is awesome. I can drink... JUICE! When I'm THIRSTY! I can drink something with my meal, and eat something that is NOT cup noodles or top ramen! I can shower every single day with SOAP! And if I run out of soap, I can buy more because I can work. Life is worth living now that childhood is over. I'm honestly glad I didn't attempt suicide, all I had to do was wait it out.
Temporary work that you have the opportunity to do as an adult. It's not easy, but life at the end of the tunnel will be.
I opened the thread thinking, "this has to be a bait post where the op just soapboxes about how much better at life they are than everyone else, and argues with literally everyone offering perspective" and I'm glad to see I was not wrong! Boy if your replies aren't some of the least self aware, most elitist stuff I've seen here so far.
bruh what. I'm just traumatized, not elitist.
I dunno man, why doesn't everyone with actual problems just ahh, buy an Android phone, learn how to program or do whatever the hell else you think everyone should be doing to just simply live the obviously better life that you have?
That's ONE solution out of countless. I'm saying anyone can make a solution that works for themselves whether it's tech based or not.
Oh wait, not everyone has the same opportunities as everyone else, and so not only may these options be unavailable to a lot of people, they may also be completely useless in solving someone's difficult life.
Everyone has the opportunity to improve their lives. If you're working and making money then you can make your life exactly the way you want it to be. It takes time and effort, yeah, but it's not impossible.
You sound like a Tech Bro in their early twenties who landed a sweet job out of college (that they didn't pay for) and wonders why people choose to be homeless. And before you try to correct me, that's what you sound like, so unless that's the persona you wanna give off, maybe try to listen to what people are saying instead of trying to find out how they're wrong.
Nah I'm a 27 year old who was locked away for 20 years, and I've only got to live and experience life for 3 years. I landed a sweet job at ✨ Amazon ✨ I do love technology (well, technology that isn't stupid) and I think "homeless" should mean primarily renting an apartment. Having zero shelter shouldn't have a word, it shouldn't be a thing.
Do you really think people with "difficult lives" are so stressed out because they forgot to take the garbage out multiple times? Seriously? Christ 😂
That was quite literally my family. Or, is. Is my family. Yet they refuse to just... Take out the trash earlier so they don't need to remember right before they sleep like the countless months of consecutive weeks of forgetting. They complain about having no time for anything but refuse to order online instead of going to two Targets, two Costcos, Bj's, Walmart, Stop & Shop, Walgreens, Aldi, Lidl, and five international stores in the same day for fifteen hours, back to back Saturday and Sunday, and having to wait until Monday night to sleep. You know, to buy the same things you could buy from Amazon or from those stores as a delivery order. There are other things they can do that they just don't do, and blame me, the person wanting things to be easier, for ALL of the problems caused by them not wanting to change because God didn't make lazy people. God STILL didn't drop a tree on me or kill me with lightning like I demand every day. Stop trying to impress a concept.
Use my free time to go to a farmers market to buy produce from finance bros who bought from costco and are selling it at a markup acting like they're "foreign" alongside "handmade" jewelry bought in bulk from Temu and AliExpress? I'd rather use the service that gave me a job and the opportunity to grow even more. I didn't need a degree or diploma to work at Amazon. (I graduated high school, it's just that the diploma has a gross embarrassing ugly birth name that I wish to cut out of my life) I didn't need references or anything else that would have brought my horrible past into relevancy. And I'll be able to take college courses all free, and I get $$$ this holiday season on TOP of overtime pay. All of this opportunity given to me, a rando who went to hiring.amazon.com and picked up an available shift. I have no merit. (well I do but I hide it lol) I'm a loser. A mistake. Scum. Yet I'm making $22/hour bringing in $1000 a week after taxes with 55 hours. Tell me more about this shithead who is much worse than actual scammers on the street manipulating your empathy to sell overpriced "organic" "fresh picked" produce bought from costco.
Yes, this is the way. Watch TV. Play a game. Play an instrument. Sleep. Write stories. Draw. Do online courses. Make a game. Create jewelry. Visit a park. Lay around and do nothing. LIVE. Why spend this time manually doing what a mindless robot can do?
Now go further. Use Amazon Subscribe & Save to buy non-Fresh groceries automatically every month. It can be set as frequent as every week to every 6 months. Set and forget. Sell your car. Spend more time for yourself instead of trying to impress God.
Some, not all. In this day and age where technology exists, some things should just never be done.
Then achieve it. Adulthood has limitless opportunity. Are you over 18? Then achieve it. If not, then suffer in happy prison until it's over.
I'm not talking about work as in jobs, I'm talking about housework. Everyone has at least five jobs, taking care of their home is four of them.
I've heard this before, and when I stopped believing in god I vowed that if god had an issue with me having an easy life he can come fist fight me.
You would flatten a child to wait in a McDonald's drive thru a minute earlier but I'm miserable on my scooter and bike okay sure Jan. Imagine riding a bike in a park, that's so horrible, you should ride a fake bike with a video of a park instead. Those TVs should have fake wind as well. And while you're at it, project a fake window gif onto your wall. Cars ruin cities.