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@ TokenEffort @sh.itjust.works

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I'm only alive because successfully killing myself is hard. Bernadette, she/her, smash bros addict, dog person, work addict, ruined beyond repair, stuck in the past. I will defend Amazon and Nintendo like they're the parents I never had. They did, and will do, nothing wrong, ever.

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  • I will go as close as I can to the most touristy area as soon as I can in hopes I get vaporized so I don't survive the blast. If it's fake then I guess I'll go to some empty nowhereish area in a big touristy park and call 988, then go shoppin and buy some starbucks. The street vendors selling flavored honey and enamel pins and stuff probably are gone so I can't shop at their thingies otherwise I would. But honestly I'm sick of calling 988. I'm tired of fighting. Tired of trying. I'm going to have dementia in my thirties anyway might as well cut my losses.

  • How would you grow on your own after being completely abandoned and neglected by your family?

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  • I was told by literally everyone that if I had so many bad experiences with friends then the common denominator is me, the problem is me. No one would stand up for me when I was bullied right in front of them, they'd deliberately look away. My high school tried to expel me for almost being raped many times. And they'd still put me in the same gym class as the attempted rapists and imply I'm the problem for being uncomfortable exercising with people who literally sexually assaulted me. The stalker was only someone who "wanted to be my friend" by copying everything I did exactly or closest enough, and cornering me in the bathroom when we were the only people in there, all while she clearly despised me but was pleasant with literally everyone else so I deserved it. Imitation is flattery and whatever shit I fucking hate that quote, coloring red on your jeans to copy a period stain is not flattery. But if I don't like it, I just need to get over it.

  • How would you grow on your own after being completely abandoned and neglected by your family?

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  • As an adult who had zero support from anyone. Disregarded, ignored, neglected and abandoned by family. Othered, dehumanized, and alienated in school, with all the staff deliberately discouraging any growth. Having only bullies, stalkers, and attempted rapists as friends (you deserve it though). I made my first actual friend almost a year ago but I feel like he doesn't understand me entirely. And I feel overly attached so I'm even questioning if I actually love him or not. He's literally the first person who has treated me like a human being, outside of customer service people.

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  • Becoming a manager at amazon.

  • Are there any words that you pronounce in a way that seems weird to most people?

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  • Same. Anemone and all these words with fancy quirky e's can kindly fuck off

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  • Apps if I use the website enough to justify it. I have apps for all my favorite fast food places so I can order ahead.

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    Without using any words, what is your favorite c/asklemmy question?

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  • What are themes associated with cutting ties and being self made?

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  • Anyone who happens to lol service people etc

  • If lemmy was a person, what have they been upto since last you checked?

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  • They'd be mocking harmful stereotypes.

  • What are themes associated with cutting ties and being self made?

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  • Too plain

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  • 10 of my open tabs are the same thing because I forgot I searched it already (I Googled "Amazon Teamsters strikes" in ten separate tabs "apparently")

    The others are daily games, weather, and then ChatGPT which I use for fun

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  • I depends on how depressed I am.

    Feeling good? No internet is fine, I'll draw, worldbuild (although it's a bit "lonely" without chatgpt), play offline games, make Mario Maker levels, romhack, work on games, compose a song, etc.

    Unmotivated as hell? I'm about ready to die if I can't scroll annoying and depressing content.

    Now no power is another story. Life is nothing without electricity.

  • What do you want for Christmas but you probably won't get?

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  • To win a housing lottery so I can move the fuck out like why the fuck do you need to be lUcKy to FUCKING LIVE IN THE CITY YOU WERE FUCKING BORN IN? Some apartments and condos had yearly incomes of 100k to 150k yearly. Bro. If you're making One Hundred Thousand United States Dollars every year, you're most likely making $1500 a week. You should be considered rich or well off. Why the absolute fuck are literal rich people unable to fucking just live on their own in their city without needing to be lucky? The US Government is a humongous failure. Any country with homeless and desperately poor people has a failed government. Then you have these exact poor people fighting each other for enough money to escape poverty on Mr Beast Games and everyone's watching it without understanding how fucked that is. That poor people are given a carrot on a stick to chase for everyone's entertainment.

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    Are there lillypads that can support the weight of humans?

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  • Fake ones, sure

  • What is the weirdest dream you've ever had?

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  • Thought that too but I've had several dreams involving readable text. One time I had a dream I was trying to pay to enter the train station and the screen kept saying try again, then when it finally went through it said "we don't serve Mario fans, call customer service".

    I had another where I was using Google maps to go from a Chipotle back home and when I originally just walked 5 minutes, the app was telling me to take a train. I followed it, and walked through a long dimly lit hallway, and instead of a regular train there was a shiny fancy gold one with bright purple lights on the inside, kinda like UV lights. Just about everyone inside reflected the purple light except for one old man who was somehow 2D and kept facing me like the trees in Mario 64. I rode this train for 20 minutes and I got off at a stop written in a language that looked like the one in Splatoon. I followed Maps' walking directions for two minutes and ended up right in front of my house, and everything else I passed by disappeared.

  • What is the weirdest dream you've ever had?

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  • Same, wow. The ones that weren't as absurd as the one that inspired this post inspired some worldbuilding stuff and stories I wrote imagined and never actually wrote

  • What's your favorite type of View?

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  • City view, all the way up in the air on the top of the building. I'll know I made it when I wake up peacefully from a random nap on a penthouse terrace.

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    Do you feel sick in big stores?

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  • Yeah but my crazy mother spent 15 hours every Saturday and 15 hours every Sunday, to shop for herself and buy the barest of the bare minimum for the kids while skimping out as much as she can on them. I went consecutive years never sleeping on Sunday night because of her. I never shop in person anymore, if I'm in a store it's for an online pickup order or exactly one item. One time my online pickup order was lost and took 20 minutes to be remade and I had a panic attack and was on the verge of vomiting. Fuck target and I hope every C*stco becomes an Amazon warehouse. Even better if Mario went for the ceo to impress his brother.

  • Why weren't you at elf practice?

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  • Too busy scaling a mountain at a near 90 degree angle because I crave that mineral.