I don't know about actually retouching photos, but I don't know any digital artists that have used Photoshop in a long, long time! There are a TON of alternatives for art.
Bird-watching or star-gazing or both. A pair of binoculars is all you really need for either. You can print some stuff off online if you wanna get fancier with it.
So then under gender roles, men can't love women, only objectify them? Wouldn't this make society one giant trauma factory where men are traumatized into detached sociopathy and women are traumatized into servitude?
Yes
Are they all loveless relationships, or did all of the men cheat their gender role to develop romantic feelings?
It's not either/or, some people do one, the other, or both. Not everyone gets into a relationship, either.
You're only 23, though, you don't need to have all your shit figured out already, and you definitely don't need to understand everything about love and patriarchy all at once either.
I don't know about actually retouching photos, but I don't know any digital artists that have used Photoshop in a long, long time! There are a TON of alternatives for art.