I used to be that way at that age. I used to take delight in smelling fresh coffee grounds in the morning while making my coffee, and telling myself "Enjoy it while you can, because you never know when it'll be the last time."
Living like that was stressful. I'm in my late 30's now. It eventually goes away and you just learn to enjoy the life you've got without putting the pressure of "... this goes away at some point," weighing down on you all the time.

I used to like him for the "Let's play" stuff. He was just genuinely funny and his shit talking was goofy and made the game fun. But yeah, the second he was on about anything else, the more I realized he's a pretty garbage person.