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Not directly. But

My Autism is actually a bigger issue. Allegedly Australia/NZ have regulations on disabilities, which I'm not sure how much being on the spectrum would affect

More importantly... One needs a job/education to live in somewhere like the EU (the few non-EU European countries almost all have equally or harder visa requirements). Education still costs lots of money for non-EU folks, and job market isn't particularly good in EU. So having depression, which makes getting/keeping a job harder, certainly don't help...

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zlatiah @lemmy.world 5mo ago

Short answer: Try medication (which worked)

Long answer:

I have clinically diagnosed depression, Major Depressive Disorder. Known it from first year of college, symptoms started way earlier probably around middle school

Psychologist from a few years ago recommended me to read the Feeling Good Handbook. I ended up reading the entire thing end-to-end... Most of it I don't really recall anymore at this point. But the book did mention about how there are two gold-standard forms of therapy: "talk-therapy" (usually what psychologists do, most popular one I think is CBT), and antidepressants/medication. And the people who respond most effectively to these two options are almost anti-correlative with each other

It turned out I was among the smaller group of people who don't respond very well (if at all) to talk therapy, but respond very well to medication. I was quite mentally against antidepressants up until that point, but I decided to just bite the bullet and give it a shot... So I talked with my psychologist, who then connected me with a psychiatrist who helped me get a prescription for Fluoxetine (Prozac) and monitored my progress every 2-3 months. It was basically a miracle drug for me. MDD can't be cured, but me taking prescribed antidepressants, along with me getting adopted by two cats at that time, almost "cured" my depression for good. I was on a very low dose too, only 10-20 mg/d

But to echo what others have said. Therapy is work. I was very committed to finding an intervention. Even though CBT didn't work very well I still managed to visit my psychologist every month and self-reflect afterwards, and that continued several years onwards even when most of my symptoms were greatly reduced after medication. No one forced me to read through a several hundred page book either, or to overcome my mental barrier of taking medication... I chose to partake these actions on my own

But yeah I think therapy does work if one is willing to put the effort into it

zlatiah @lemmy.world 5mo ago

I have a pretty high respect for nearly all professional athletes to be honest. The aspect I respect the most is mainly how much technical competence and practice are needed to perform at professional levels

... although it may be because I do play really difficult video games, some of which can be considered to be e-sports. A less niche example, when I played chess semi-seriously for a year I really learned just how strong the Grandmasters are. Maybe this view bled into my view of conventional sports too

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zlatiah @lemmy.world 5mo ago

I'll say the stupidest swear word I could imagine. Something like "Krankenscheisse"

For context, my apartment is within the blast zone of both the EU and the NATO headquarters... if I see a mushroom cloud I'm assuming for the worst, if it's not directly on top of my head in the first place

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zlatiah @lemmy.world 5mo ago

Yup I didn't realize it was a prison at all, took several pictures all over & only found it out later via Wikipedia

Saint-Gilles Prison in Belgium. Apparently it should have just been closed so...

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zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

You don't say!

Literally "a random building" I saw while waiting for a timed museum visit nearby. This is a patriot's monument. The building on the back (which was what caught my attention in the first place) turned out to be the city prison

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

Apparently I've been living under a rock

A proper Apple laptop, for just 600 bucks? And discount to 500 for educational purposes?? I've actually had a previous workplace where they would only issue Windows or Mac computers for work... which I think this would have been extremely handy. Because of this I'm honestly quite happy to hear the news, since it will probably make me requesting dedicated work computers easier. 8GB RAM is a bit of a bummer, but there are HPCs and virtual machines for heavy computation tasks so...

I refuse to pay Apple out of principle, so I don't think my personal opinions about the Neo matter much... I guess one positive thing I could say is that I find the idea of using ARM chips for full computers quite cool

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zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

I've read upon a particular prediction that I thought would be quite likely to happen. The bubble itself will likely burst, similar to the dot com bubble... but AI as a technology is likely here to stay, similar to the dot com bubble. The hope is that most of the current AI expertise/research will shift more toward academic institutions, who will primarily work on building scientific AI for research purposes. Similar to how foundation models/LLMs are already used in studying genetics/genomics and protein structures... And a few commercial AIs might eventually find a way to be profitable & stay on the market

Will suck a bit for the ML engineers who will have to find new jobs in academia and suffer massive pay cuts though

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

Researcher. Important? Kind-of, I work in a supposedly very important biomedical research area but my position itself is not that important due to a variety of reasons...

Am I proud? Hell no. I'm only staying because I get paid enough (especially since I lived on near-poverty income for 5 years and below-average for another...). I'd disappear the moment I have a better opportunity, or if my paycheck is gone. This is position-specific though, I don't mind working the same job as long as a few small things change

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

Yes and I have done it a good bit back in the US. Striking up a conversation with a total stranger is a bit frowned upon in the part of Europe where I live now... so I won't

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

This is comparing two pretty extreme scenarios... which are both pretty strange but for different reasons

A lot of performing arts (music, sports) and related industries have a "winner takes all" model, where the most famous performer makes exponentially more than the average one. OF is a bit similar. So if you are a top OF model who won the genetic lottery, you could make millions... which hides the fact that the average OF model doesn't make remotely as much (as others have pointed out)

Open source is more like a normal business, but with the problem that it doesn't really generate profits given that many FOSS software are free as in free beer... If there is no revenue then of course there wouldn't be a good salary either...

I do think there is a rather similar but interesting counter example: academic scientists. Many scientists do make rather comfortable wages; where I live now, postdocs/professors actually get paid above the national average. However, this is because science is very important to society... so the money we make come from governments/taxpayers. Governments generally agree to fund science at the taxpayers' expense, because it will pay off in the long run. If governments don't fund science then most scientists (barring some engineers) would make peanuts as well... So yeah, if governments believe FOSS has societal benefits and fund FOSS developers, that might be a way for them to make a lot more

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

Late 20s. If you count lurking, just when the Reddit 3rd party API thing happened; if not, a bit over a year ago

I've been using Mastodon for a few months and even transitioned to selfhosting a -key instance for a while back then. So when the Reddit fiasco happened it was pretty natural for me to be drawn to Lemmy lol. I've only been a lurker even on Reddit though, so it took me some time to actually participate. Fun fact, but I first became aware of Lemmy a few months before the API thing, when the top posts only had a bit over 100 upvotes and almost every other person knew it for the devs' questionable political ideologies... I'm still a bit positively surprised that Lemmy has become as self-sustaining as it is today

I think I'd fall more into the latter camp but both descriptions somewhat apply to me TBH. I've daily driven Gentoo for a year and a half for good measures (don't do that anymore out of practicality), and I generally have a distaste for anything too mainstream so

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

Video games. Very, very challenging video games that don't require co-op... I'm currently mostly maining rhythm games, but had several years where I hyperfixated on roguelikes as well

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

For mornings, 75 g light-roast coffee / 1250 g water made with a French press using the Hoffmann method, divided equally for 4 days per brew (so roughly 250-300 ml liquid each day). Not sure about caffeine content

And then I have some random tea bought from the local Asian supermarket that I brew casually with hot water & drink throughout the day without any care as to how I make it, no idea how much caffeine is in this either

I usually don't take in any other caffeine beyond my daily routine

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

Community is too small

I think most of the things I find annoying about the fediverse (echo-chamber, lack of interactions overall, no real place for discussing extremely niche interests) stem from the fact that it is not big enough so...

I don't think it is a terrible thing per-se though, small communities have lots of upsides too

zlatiah @lemmy.world 6mo ago

I really want to be able to go clubbing

Okay! If that's what you want... I have never gone clubbing in China or Japan, but I was being told that nightlife absolutely exists & is quite nice in both countries. Major cities of course; rural area in East Asia aren't as easily accessible as those in the wealthier European countries so

Have you considered going to multiple places? Japan isn't that far away from China all things considered. And if you are going to China... most people stick to Southern China (fewer things to do in the North unfortunately), which if you do, Shenzhen is right next to Hong Kong/Macao, and Taiwan isn't that far away either

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When do Americans actually do the taxes? On January 1? Or do y'all like procrastinate till April 15?

What are the best pieces of 'stock' media you've encountered?

What's something minor that annoyed you today?

What advice/solutions did your therapy actually give you?

What advice/solutions did your therapy actually give you?

Non sports fans is there a sport/aspect or player that you admire or respect for what is required by skill or ability?

If you saw a mushroom cloud, what would you say?

Can we see a photo you took recently?

Can we see a photo you took recently?

What are your thoughts on the Macbook Neo?

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How does Onlyfans models earn thousands and in some cases millions per month, meanwhile a lot of opensource developers earn less than 1000$ per month?

(Roughly) how old are you and how did you come to be on Lemmy?

You there! What are your Hobbies?

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What is your least favourite thing about the fediverse or lemmy?

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"I'm not overweight I'm just fluffy"

Every Author as First Author

Criss-cross void

TIL of Darwin's Ark, a community research nonprofit aimed to better understand household pets (and they are actively seeking ppl to help with cat research!)

If you are allowed to shop online for one last time before being banned from online shopping for 3 years, would you buy/stock up on anything?

Disease: /LOSS

Tommy trying to look like a seal today

This is a thought experiment "Ball on a Table" for detecting whether someone has Aphantasia. What do you see when you perform this experiment?

The internet archive may have just suffered a security breach

What is the hardest video game(s) in your opinion, why, and what other games are you comparing against to make this conclusion?

TIL the name of computer "bugs" stuck around because a moth got stuck in a computer component in 1947