Sorry, I don't have any specific reccs, last time I listen to grief related stuff was years ago. There's a shitload though, there's probably some a best-list somewhere on the 'net.
In my experience, grief comes in waves, and they slowly diffuse and get weaker and further apart. So it will slow at some point, and then it will come back again, but less intense, and that will repeat until it fades into the background of your mind.. Sorry I can't suggest a timeframe, that's too context dependant.
Something else I've found useful is listening to podcasts about grief - there are quite a few of them, and the wisdom is pretty transferrable, and it has that good vibe of feeling like there are others out there who get it.
I graduated at 22. And at 27. And at 28. And at 34.
TBH the whole time I was there there were people there older than me, and they often had lots of useful experience that gave them interesting perspectives. Shit is not a race. Quality over quantity.
Also, threatening to do it is plausible just because texts relating to that are present in the training data. It doesn't mean that an LLM actually knows what blackmail is, let alone is capable of doing anything about it.
Why duplicate this thread? There's now at least 3 copies..