I wouldn't say that nature is cruel, but amoral and chaotic, with a focus on trying all the venues for survival, whith some for moral beings like us, seemingly cruel.
When I did experimentation, I often focused on minimizing harm. I also try doing as much good as I am doing "bad". That helps me deal with this.
Similar case for me, but I would recommend OP or anyone reading to work it through with their doctor (or even switch), being honest with them and oneself.
I'll watch For All Mankind, get giddy with all the advances, science and exploration, then it ends and I remember how everything in our timeline sucks balls (and not in a fun way).
I meant in distrowatch appears as so. Then again I really like these kind of hobbyist opinionated distros that sprouted in the early 2000s and the zeitgeist behind.
Insects and arachnids are other examples of sexual dimorphism where females are considerably larger, as the sole purpose of the male is copulation.
(Some males compete against each other and that makes their size matter.)
The female will initially protect the nest, while the male forages (or hunts). Being smaller means they will eat less and therefore can bring back more food.
As the female is protecting the nest, theoretically is spending less energy and using her size to intimidate possible predators.
You should start licking batteries, to build resistence.