I live with my parents, so I can indulge in it. I love reading fiction of all kinds: fantasy, classics, sci-fi. I also read a lot of philosophy and japanese comics.
I lost the ability to want to live and I don't know how to get it back. I have been on meds and undergoing therapy for last 5 years or so. I am generally okay, but certain incidents trigger the worst aspects of me. that is because I have BPD.
Anyways, thanks for your kind words. I will certainly try.
I am sorry, but I don't have friends. Nobody gives a damn about me. I too tired to make it through anything. I just want to die. I don't deserve to live.
I am sorry about that. No one deserved that outburst. I wish I can take back my words. I have been feeling pretty suicidal for last week or so and I lost my temper when I shouldn't have.
See that's the thing... I am alone in my struggle. I cannot ask for help. I cannot even cry for help. I don't have anyone who can lend me a shoulder to cry. I have not felt kindness for so long. I am basically someone who is rejected over and over again...
I wish it were that easy. Everyday I lose a little more hope in humanity's future. Even in my most sane moments, I just don't feel like living in this world where everything and everyone is commoditized.
Just go to Satan. Pretty sure, cat has deposed him to become the ruler of hell.