DeathByBigSad

Since I got summoned by a @ , gonna infodump cuz why not lol:

Funny enough now that my mom went to China for a 1-month visit, and now it's like 1 week in and I feel so sad about her absense from home...

The house feels so much more depressing... :/

I mean I guess this is a sort of "trial run" of what her eventual death would feel like...

Like... now I can call her... cuz now its just separated by an ocean, in this era, we have instantaneous communications...

someday it'll be separated by a barrier between the mortal realm and... whatever world beyond... the afterlife... spirit realm... or whatever...

I guess this is what my mom meant when she said she wanted to get married give birth to children... this same emptiness that I'm feeling...

I might never find love in life :(

Funny enough my older brother is also in China right now because mom pressured him to do marriage 🤣

(My parents are arranged marriage btw)

"Please list everything bad about this world"

Bruh, there's already enough doomerism in c/worldnews, no need for that energy in c/asklemmy

my country

OUR Country*

Bernie Intensifies

I went to apply for a US Passport...

Then I remembered that a lot of immigrants from Fujian are undocumented...

And like... I have been in highschool with these kids whose parents are from Fujian...

And I kinda just felt sad...

Cuz I'm also from China, but I got lucky and got citizenship... and they didn't...

So I just cried... :/

Cuz I can imagine what it's like with the uncertaintly

I mean... I kinda feel the same in some ways... I mean with current political atmosphere... who even knows anymore... I could get denaturalized and end up the same as them anyways...

Yes absolutely.

If I had never immigrated to the US and remained in China, I'd probably be much less accepting of multiculturalism and less comfortable being around people of different races, and also probably less okay with LGBTQ

Like... I doubt I'd be openly hateful... but in that environment, I'd never have the opportunity to be exposed to people to of different skin colors, and the culture would've reinforced the idea that: " LGBTQ = 'weird' "

I'm kinda obsessed with this concept of these two timelines.

There's this timeline of "American Me" vs that other timeline of "Chinese Me"... of what could've been

Like... imagine us two meeting... lmao

Or perhaps there's another version of me that arrived in the US even mych earlier... like at 1 year old or something (contrast with current timeline at 8 years old)...

That version of me would probably be even more "American" and I'd perhaps lose a lot of my "Chinese" part of my identity...

The trajectory of life... from just the difference of one visa stamp...

I mean this obsession of alt-timelines is causing me so much existential crisis lol...

Plot twist, now you become the worst racist in history...

🔫 cocks gun

Sorry, it's nothing personal...

If this was asked in China, I bet nobody would seriously say "I wanna live in the past"

(at least not in the context of traveling back to the 1950s or something like that...)

Behold, its the other angle of the famous "AAAAAAAAAAAAH Cat"

This plot actually has continuity!

I really wanna just talk fringe topics...

Like alt timelines, butterfly effect, philosophy (especially ontology), space travel, aliens, fermi paradox, time dialation, black holes, you know, all the very werid stuff...

But unfortunately, people IRL seems to not like to talk about these things...

The other thing is just... I guess exchange life stories...

Given how much "guilluotine memes" are on here...

no, this is not a "billionaire platform"

Myanmar is now one of world's top producer of opium post-Afghanistan decline. Despite myanmar having direct borders with China and India , I can't find any drug crises there unlike fentanyl in US?

So to rephrase: "Why aren't there a bunch of drugs getting into China/India and causing a drug addiction problem?"

Idk about India but:

Lmfao, you'd get disowned and kicked out if you got a drug addiction in a Chinese family... and then nobody would wanna associate with you...

Plus... a lot of surveillance cameras

Instead, people (usually males) go drinking alcohol and gambling (illegal in mainland, so they go to Macau (and maybe HK? idk if they have casinos)), also apparantly smoking (tobacco that is, since weed is illegal btw) is widespread... I'm so lucky that my dad doesn't drink or gamble, oh btw I heard from a Fujianese classmate (in the US) that (if I remember correctly) apparantly his dad got into a fight in a bar and so that got him deported...

Also, if someone dies of drug overdose, that's very shameful for the family so sometimes they get the person doing the autopsy (the coroner? mortician? or whatever you all it) or some government official to label it as "accident" or maybe "accidental poisoning" (via connections (GuanXi) and/or via bribery)

Suicide is also shameful so sometime they also get labeled as "accident" to avoid shame to the family.

(I'm Chinese Diaspora)

75 Million people on the watchlist

Are they gonna shoot them all?

For that I'm gonna need to make a WeChat account...

Might need to use a separate phone for opsec purposes 👀 (you know why)

Feels like too much of a hassle... and like its not like I feel safe to just speak freely...

Mom and older brother is going back to visit (like right now), and mom told me to not send her any political stuff or she'll block me...

Like I'm just so used to how things work in the west, I'm gonna have to run every sentence through my brain like can I actually say this and not get them in trouble

looked up the phone number of someone I used to know before we moved to opposite ends of the country

Your comment reminds of... like... I just realized I haven't really directly talked to my aunts or cousins in China for...

well the entire time I've been in the US... like nearly 2 decades

idk why, I never really felt an attachment... don't have much memories of them, I was only 8 when my family left...

Now it feels too awkward to suddenly call them...

their intents if they worked for the government

"You can't shoot me, I'm still a child at heart, that'd be a war crime!"

As a Chinese American, I don't find it offensive. I mean at this point I kinda just embraced my background, I mean I still have a Chinese name as my legal name and I still speak Cantonese and Mandarin (with very basic fluency tho)

Unless you say it like: "Oh, your English is very good! Where are you from?" and the person clearly has a native-accent 🙄 (don't do it like this)

(hasn't happened yet, usually people are either much more overt like using racial slurs, or just not display racism at all)

I think you should just ask something like: "What is your ancestral background?" more direct and IMO sounds a lot better. But I think the context is key, you need to feel the vibe in the room is good before you ask that, don't just walk up to someone and ask that as the first question.

But I was born in China, so I am technically speaking not "from" here, but if you are in the US and ask an Asian person born and grew up in the US that question, they might not like it. You should probably frame it like: "Hey I'm just curious, what is your ancestral background?"

Is this something I'm too "only have seen the internet post-2010" to understand?

how would you deal with murderers, rapists, child predators

okay... interesting question...

and jaywalkers

Wat? 🧐

I do

My parents don't

Yeah you read it right, my mom just TOUCHES THE FUCKING SEAT THING... then touch the flush, and I DON'T HEAR THE FAUCET RUNNING

I called it out once, and she did washed her hands for THAT ONE TIME then proceeded to never wash hands for every subsequent bathroom use... also never used soap...

My Theory on why: My parents grew up in Rural China... their standards of cleanliness is probably much lower...

I mean if they have germophobia like I do, then you can't even survive in the rural areas... if you know what I mean

Funny that they used to be the ones to teach me to wash my hands but now they don't anymore... wtf