This actually feeds into another thought I've had, which is covid. We manage our lives, and have time to spare for ourselves and others, because others have had time to spare for us. My job kept me late but my neighbor who works at the grocery store can grab me some baby formula since the sale ends today; her kid is sick but I have a WFH day so I can keep an eye on him while she goes to work. I have an endoscopy but my retired aunt can drive me to and from the medical plaza; she needs someone to check out her roof so I make time on a Saturday afternoon. We all have these little pieces of (what I'll call) "grace" in our lives, things that make people's lives easier. But the grace comes from pieces of other people's lives.

Then covid hits. Something like 1,300,000 Americans die from covid. Yes, a number of them were elderly, but way more were still productive in small ways, providing bits of their time to make other people's lives easier - the neighbor who picked your kid and hers from the same school, the guy down the block who shoveled your walkway when it snowed, your mom who came and took care of the house when you broke your leg, all helping each other.

Another 13,000,000 Americans, many of them in their very productive years, have long covid. Their focus is now just in getting through their daily lives. Not only do they no longer have bits and pieces of time they can spare to help other people, they require more bits and pieces of time from the people around them.

In my original scenario, if I have long covid, my elderly aunt still drives me to my appointment, but she has to either find a willing helper from a much smaller pool, or pay for repairs herself on a increasingly small fixed income. I don't have the energy to watch my neighbor's sick child (or risk getting sick again myself); she needs to work overtime to make up the pay and can't get to my baby formula. My neighbor with long covid no longer clears my walkway, my mom died so getting help when I break my leg is harder and more personal.

Mr. Rogers said, "Look for the helpers," but most of us were helpers in our own way, at different times of our lives. But so many people lost those bits of time we could spare other people, lost people who could spare time for us, and it all happened at the same time. [Well, over a couple years, but still ... ]

Normally, if you lose a helper, you can find someone else to help; it may be a struggle, but you adjust. But everyone lost their helpers at the same time, and at that exact same time, everyone also ended up needing additional help.

It feels like a less kind world because it is less kind. We've all lost bits and pieces of our social support network, and we can't afford to give away as much time or effort as we used to, and we have yet to acknowledge how much this loss of spare time, of grace given and received from others, has cost us on both an individual and a societal level.

And this loss of grace, especially unacknowledged as it is, has increased the amount of stress that everyone in our society is under. And where there's increased stress, there's less opportunity for nuance.