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I'm only alive because successfully killing myself is hard. Bernadette, she/her, smash bros addict, dog person, work addict, ruined beyond repair, stuck in the past. I will defend Amazon and Nintendo like they're the parents I never had. They did, and will do, nothing wrong, ever.

  • The only things a family's mother cared about was grocery shopping and watching people die on TV. Anything that got in the way of that was a problem.

    One of her daughters can drive, and every Saturday and Sunday, she'd drive the whole family to Stop & Shop, Walmart, Target, Costco, another Costco, another Target, an international market, another international market, a Chinese market, an Indian market, Aldi, Lidl, BJ's Wholesale, and Sam's Club. These grueling journeys would last 15 hours.

    Bringing in the groceries and trying to fill an already overfilled refrigerator with duct tape from last week's journey took several hours. On Sundays we had to take out trash, which included old meat and produce that family's mother over-overbought for herself and let rot while blaming the same people she vilified for eating some of. Taking out trash was always a five hour slog, but on Sunday it was a longer slog.

    By the time the trash is out and that family's mother's groceries are in the fridge and freezer, everyone would need to rush to get ready to go to school or work. I always had to skip a shower on Mondays as me washing myself was seen as a waste of resources and time by everyone in that family as I don't count as a real human being.

    And yes, Monday NIGHT. Not afternoon, night. There were dogs that family's mother brought home and neglected and skimped out on everything for so she could buy more groceries and watch more rich people pretend to die. We would need to walk them, not in the afternoon, but at night, and we were not allowed to sleep before walking them. She found it funny and would come up with some other excuse for why we needed to wait to sleep.

    Same thing happened on Wednesdays but without the grocery shopping. Can't sleep before walking the dogs or taking out the trash, the latter being started at 1AM and taken out at 6AM.

    Childhood is prison. Literally it's being raised to be clean and healthy, then being bullied and humiliated for doing the right things, then being punished and reprimanded for not doing the thing you were literally bullied and humiliated for doing. Fuck childhood.

    I should add that my life was sitting on a short bus for 2 hours, then sitting in the same desk for 7 hours straight, then sitting on the short bus for 2.5 hours to go isolate myself from my original bullies and their mother.

  • Just about every store that sells groceries in person. It was traumatic being a kid trapped in those places for at least 10 hours on both Saturday and Sunday and having to wait until Monday night to sleep. I absolutely love amazon subscribe & save and just never running out of necessities or needing to do any chores on my work days. Adulthood is so much better than glorified prison.

  • After.

    Seasonings like dried herbs go before 👌😫

  • The first step to him taking over America and misusing the military to take over other countries until he has world domination and requires everyone to use 𝕏 accounts as government ID, banking, and the only source for news, communication, media, education, and entertainment.

  • A good ride on a bike or scooter

  • Internet. Surprisingly, that's the name of my relatives and parents!

  • There is a variable for the days, like the day of the week (0-6), of the month (0-30) of the year (0-364). It should be possible to program each functionality and only have the one for the given day visible while the others aren't. My wallpaper shows rain, snow, or sunshine depending on the weather conditions idk I'm also very enthusiastic about Kustom lol

  • Bully was there, isolated me and made me an afterthought. Everyone practically forgot it was my birthday while enjoying the pizza, soda, and snacks.

    Or when family just dragged me out to grocery shop with them for hours on end.

  • I know you didn't ask but I made my watch face with Kustom (KWCH)

    They have apps for lock screen, widget, and home screens as well, programmable with their programming language

  • Getting a 99% grade, proof I don't care about education and don't pay attention to anything other than stupid video games. How hard is it to Just Follow Directions? I am so glad I'm not a child anymore.

  • Honestly I'd use Solflare or Phantom, and buy the currency using coinbase and send it to those. Coinbase Wallet is a thing but like eh idk the others are better

  • Neocities is Tumblr if it were worth anyone's time.

  • That reminds me of when I was addicted to those Walker shortbread cookies sold at Starbucks (specifically those ones!) and bought 4 packs, and the cashier looked at them and said, "yo these are like crack"

    That same subtle flavor I'll literally destroy a planet for.

  • Idk I also love anything cooked with sesame oil as well for that particular flavor

  • I only miss a more fun internet, and internet before TikTok.

  • Print on demand.

    If I want a very specific shoe, I can create it.

    I want shoes with my fanart of DogDay and CatNap from Poppy Playtime and I will make them exist. One orange one purple both with yellow accents lfg

  • The lack of content makes it less addictive and I can actually get bored of it and do something other than scrolling

  • They abused me in several horrible ways and they'll never get what they deserve because I don't count as a real person.