Their orders are to terrorize. Rape, kill, maim… whatever the need to do to send the message:
YOU’RE NOT WANTED HERE
to any and all immigrants legal or otherwise. This is thing other than a campaign to run ALL non-whites out of America so that America resembles trump’s golf resort.
The violence is 100% intentional and is guaranteed to escalate. There will be no going back from this. They have to pus us until we fight back. When that time comes, be ready and make it count.
My best tool in coping with grief, as a neurodivergent that has had a lifetime of difficulty in dealing with/understanding loss- has been in the acceptance that I was never going to avoid this.
What I mean is, this was something that was going to happen eventually. They could not have outrun it, they could not have “healthed” their way around it. It WILL happen. And accepting this goes a long way to help to resolve the constant “what could I have done differently” part.
What does this have to do with nightmares? I’m getting to that.
Basically, Grief comes in two flavors;
There’s the “selfish” part, which is the idea that YOU won’t ever get to be with them again- and how it hurts that YOU will now forever have a massive hole in YOUR life that get once filled, that they will never have any new interactions with YOU
And then there’s the “selfless” part, which is sadness and empathy for THEIR pain, and the worry that THEY were suffering, that THEY will never have any new reactions with you.
When these two things mix together- from my experience, the selfish one is always the loudest. It’s the one that drives the knives into my heat.
… and it’s the one that brings the nightmares.
And nightmares oftentimes are a subconscious manifestation of guilt.
Once you come to terms with the fact that this was something that was always going to happen, it gets easier to work through the pain and come to a place of peace. Just know that the love you had for her remains untouched and timeless.
The nightmares will eventually cease, and her all of your memories of her will bring warmth and comfort.
Just hang in there and try and be good to yourself through this.
His legacy will be that of the most embarrassing thing to ever happen to America. No joke- This “man” will die being remembered as a cowardly little moron that threw temper tantrums when he didn’t get what he never deserved in the first place.
It’s so hard knowing that one day, they will go where we cannot follow. As much as we think we’re prepared, we never are. But it’s always helped me in the past to just simply accept that this was never going to be avoidable.
~ Godspeed to Matilda, and I hope your heart mends in as much time as it may need.
Their orders are to terrorize. Rape, kill, maim… whatever the need to do to send the message:
YOU’RE NOT WANTED HERE
to any and all immigrants legal or otherwise. This is thing other than a campaign to run ALL non-whites out of America so that America resembles trump’s golf resort.
The violence is 100% intentional and is guaranteed to escalate. There will be no going back from this. They have to pus us until we fight back. When that time comes, be ready and make it count.