It's very interesting honestly. I swapped from Catholic to evangelicalism at 14 (just me not my family, tho they supported it) and stuck with it till I was 20. It was super about it. Youth group 2 days a week plus 3 hour mass on Sundays, God was ALWAYS on my mind, every decision, every action, every goal. Then my friends went to college, and I didn't, I stuck around now forced to interact with the older crowd. They weren't just hypocrites, they were cruel and controlling and pointlessly manipulative. It became clear that the church I was at wasn't the place It was for me for years so one day I decided to just stop showing.

It was the first addiction I ever quit. The anxiety I felt was.... Immense. It took two weeks for me to start thinking clearly about it, and it was wild how easily I recognized I was literally brainwashed. I no longer needed the mental gymnastics to justify myself.

My life didn't improve or anything after that, and funnily enough I only ever saw one of my, off to college, friends again, many years later. He did try and get me back in but I was way past that stiff by that point. Surreal experience in hindsight