The important thing is that musk is a classic libertarian grifter.
His cars are propped up by government subsidies (or they were, I think he's running into problems), starlink is heavily used by NASA, and the boring company is just another way to extract government money.
He'll pretend to be a global libertarian, but what he really wants is sky high tarrifs so he doesn't have to compete with Chinese electric cars.
I think the easiest way to describe how it feels is it is like having a tooth taken out.
You've had it removed because the pain is too much, and now finally that pain is gone, but instead you're sat there feeling puffy and swollen from the recent trauma, and you're just constantly aware of this gap where there used to be something present.
Just like going to the dentist, it gets better though. And I'd do it again in a heart beat if I had to make the same decision.