I don't know. I went back after leaving for ethical etc reasons and my old reddit account was reported suspended, but also doesn't come up in a search at all. I tried to read something on a web page on my computer, to which I've never logged into reddit, and it said something about blocked, and I couldn't even load the search suggestion, that had generated it, found it on another site, anyway. I miss my content, but the site is no loss, it's a bot heavy slow boil to Nazism.
Different phases (colours of light) move at different speed, and have different longevity, I think. So how they always thought those pretty galaxy nebula photos, were red? Actually turns out that phase of light just travels for a longer time. Lasts longer.
OK, now someone correct me, because I have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about. Just bring up vague floating memories from an article i read once.
It's usually artificially manufactured by someone who wants money and control. Anarchism. Let's get rid of capitalism, and ban the ability to hoard money while others starve. Then theres no money and power to seek.
I remember putting on Kevin can fuck himself, and being super bored and not sure wth was going on. What was I supposed to be watching here. I turned it off. Wasn't until I heard someone describing it's message, and I dived back in. Man that was a ride! Pure brilliance. I love that it ties up, too. It was never made to be a long run, they don't do that tired thing of teasing new concepts, to never answer them, because they were beating a dead horse. It's just bam, all in, all tied up. But so delicious.
You know that phenomena where you buy a yellow car, and then you suddenly see yellow cars everywhere?
Brains are really suggestible.
You don't need to be ashamed, if your brain has gotten into a habit you don't appreciate, or is negatively affecting your life, it's something you can work on.
Gals are pretty, I'm not attracted to them, myself, but I absolutely get it.
What you want is to feel like you're in control of enjoying looking, and not that it's a compulsion, like it's driving you. That's gotta be almost taking all the pleasure out of it for you. I could imagine that would be hugely annoying.
Just start by noticing other things, go out specifically to see something, birds, trees, bugs, water, boats, whatever you find interesting, and start retraining your brain towards something else, if you try "not" to look at something, it's still the main focus, if you try not to look at girls, the focus is still girls, it's easier to help your brain notice other things. Count how many of something you see. Just let your brain notice girls as you go, notice what it's telling you and then move back to what you were looking at redirecting towards.
You don't have to do what your brain tells you to do, you aren't your "thinking brain", you are the entity that observes your thoughts, you might be inadvertently feeding those thoughts into a bigger thing than you want them to be, by actioning on them. I would suggest, try not walking or actioning them. That feeds that wolf, which is perfectly normal and fine, but hes just gotten a little too much for the space you want him to occupy.
This is all ok, its a perfectly normal, developmental stage. It will calm down on its own, too, don't stress.
Oh, I'm right there with you, my friend. Emotional immaturity can and does absolutely make personal growth relfection or change, almost impossible. And a hugely toxic and damaging childhood, for any kids involved.
I'm old now, and I'm going to therapy to try and fix some of the deep deep damage, still there. It's had a hand in messing up everything in my life, it's frustrating! The most frustrating thing is, it's built into the foundations, so you don't see it till it pops up in terrible ways. It's like playing whack a mole with a soul infecting virus. I'm focusing really hard on breaking generational traumas being passed down, because they're like that because their needs weren't met, also. My biggest fear is becoming them.
Yeah, I had foster fails, I'm looking at their fluffy butts right now. It doesn't hurt as much to give them back to be adopted, when that feeling is compared to the pain of the grief you feel. And it does feel very nice to funnel that grief into something very positive.
Completely understandable, considering everything going on, right now. My only argument against that thought, when it crosses my mind, is that's genuinely how they want you to feel. The bombardment in media of devastating stuff, is planned manipulation, designed to get you to give up hope you can ever resist, and if they make you miserable, they know you're more compliant. I won't give them what they want. I will find hope, I will find new ways to enjoy the space I have, regardless of how small they make it. It's a hard slog, right now.
I was wondering if this was a takedown from the inside, because of the whole, people working together to stop a company being shorted to death, thing. Which, i could imagine, angered those who think they're gods, to no end. But surely they wouldn't be so obvious about it.
Imagine if you were trying to take down the US. All you would need to do is whisper the right things in his ear. But I'm sure that's not what's happening.
Gen x'er here, weren't y'all like starting things in 1981....wouldn't that make you comingup on a different decade? (I'll take my rotten tomatoes now, high velocity please)
I don't know. I went back after leaving for ethical etc reasons and my old reddit account was reported suspended, but also doesn't come up in a search at all. I tried to read something on a web page on my computer, to which I've never logged into reddit, and it said something about blocked, and I couldn't even load the search suggestion, that had generated it, found it on another site, anyway. I miss my content, but the site is no loss, it's a bot heavy slow boil to Nazism.