oh its to do with dopamine, well that explains why i never got addicted to porn lmao...
For anybody wondering, my brain neurology is fucked inexplicably for some reason, i can't process emotion correctly, and i generally don't experience them either.
it's weird for me, i have ADHD traits, and also explicitly non ADHD traits, i think it's probably comorbidity with something else rather than explicitly ADHD. But that's neurology for you, sometimes it's clear, sometimes it's not, sometimes it makes no fucking sense.
I can stare at a wall just fine, but depending on what i'm doing, i need a certain minimum amount of stimulation, and just doing things feels so good.