This is how I lost my virginity the third time, at age 22 while still living at home at my father's, though DXM does normally nullify sexual gratification, so I dunno what tf was in that bottle that smelled like hot rebar.
I can put 22 billion Gokus in my ass and Fox still won't offer me my own show, but yet they're buying Dragon Ball? Like, tf they gunna do with that shit?
Also what do you do when you're both neurodivergent and developmentally delayed. I masturbated in my window. I made a bad joke about a bomb. I tried to find any and everyone on Craigslist. This was fifteen years ago. I'm thoroughly conditioned to perform my role. ;)
Your prejudice to automatically assume I'm retard McGee and that I need to be medicated into compliance with what you perceive as normative is kinda douchey, bro.
I had my lighter change colors before on mushrooms. Permenantly. I've had a number of experiences where I, personally, have been proven that this ish ain't a physical system. I understand this on a deeper level, that we are monads in a monadic nodal communication system where what defines us from the unified field of consciousness that spawned us is ultimately entanglements. I understand what the Buddha said about that, the entanglement process itself being Karma, and what emptiness is that gives rise to all this.
How do you KNOW the CIA wasn't paying for that bug to be prolonged?
Same question about epistemology: how do you KNOW God is/isn't real? How do you know this isn't a simulation with a system administrator who can supplant causation that is capable of being proven scientifically?
You live in a police state. The CIA routinely breaks the law for purposes they deem necessary. It's a possibility they were exploiting the bug for their purposes. This is the reality we live in. But this gets dismissed by charismatic figures in the news so the average person never truly considers it. Operation Mockingbird was FIFTY years ago, proving the agency is not just lying to the American public but actively breaking the law to do so. Why not this?
I don't know the books and numbers so well, but there's literally a passage where Jesus says nonsense for five lines, and the pharisees all ponder it in deep contemplation, but he explains to his followers that it's not what he says that gets people to listen, it's the authority in which he spoke. Jesus was a confident man. A con man. And it changes the meaning of "Jesus said nothing," so those who attacked him were idoltarers who just wanted an excuse to be awful people to what would have been perceived to Pontius as a mentally disabled man.
Go lateral, not up. Meditate more.